Not confident in myself
This is my first attempt that I have done on the Internet, and I even practice my English less and less in my free time. My spoken English and written English are so poor that I'm ashamed to go to an English course in this new seminar. But in my deep heart, I have to say that I really really want to improve my English skills and foreign professional knowledge. Maybe, until now I have not been confident enough to communicate with a foreigner face to face. I know it has to change, but I just cannot encourage myself to take the course.