I want to let you know that this type of feeling is very natural, and that you are not alone. I've spoken with many people who feel the same way. It's important to fully understand that the bad parts of life ARE life - just like the good parts - and that's okay. What is important is that you don't get stuck in them - though it can be hard not to, right?
Being able to express your feelings is the very best first step you can make. You should know that you have ALREADY made progress just by doing this! However, it's very important that you speak with someone who understands your situation. Please try to find a suicide or depression prevention phone number or website that you can visit to get support.
Again, I know that some people feel like they don't need to do that. But let me tell you that there are many more people struggling with these feelings than you know. The people at the depression and suicide prevention clinics are there to help you, just as they have helped many people before.
The way you feel now isn't how you've always felt, right? In the same way, it's not the way that you will always feel. Please find and speak with a professional, so that one day you can look back at this moment and be glad that you did.