I got a boyfriend recently. He and I met about three months ago through matchmaking service. It was my first date since I start using that service. I think he is nice and kind person at my first impression. We've been to lunch and dinner several times and went to see movie and walk beach together. We met about ten times. We also visited each other's house. Since I started dated him, many thoughts came to me. For example, is he truly a nice person, does he care about me, does he have a serious health issue, does he have any food preferences that I cannot accept, what are your parents like... and so on. It is so stressful to think about those things. It's not like getting along with new friends. I have to judge if he is truly okay to marry. I know I have many flaws as well, but I become very cautious! Because marriage should be only one time in my lifetime! It is impossible to be in love in this process because I should face with it very calm mind. Therefore, my dating's not like what I expected. I thought couples are just truly having fun each other, but it is not for me. But I decided my mind though...
