It's true for many,Pavel. It's only a pattern of behavior, but it's not your whole self. It's a leaned trait that can be unlearned or replaced with a different wag of 'processing ' the topic of English language. You can do it buddy, look into this area deeper from this angle. It can provide so many useful insights into other areas of your life. Overall, that's why my classes are quite pricey. We focus on the most essential element.
A parable
A factory owner was charged 10 thousand pounds for a single hit with a hammer, which caused the broken part to work.
When asked why so much for a single hit, the reply was:
For ten minutes of tapping, 1 pound.
For knowing where to hit — 9999 pounds.
Total: 10,000 pounds.
I know what to 'hit' when it comes to spoken English efficiently or being the top performer.