Hello native English speakers.
Is this sentence grammatical correct?
With liking English so much that I could die for it but extremely being afraid of not learning it very well so much that I could also die for it, I must look for a native English speaker or American who wants to learn Chinese, in this case, I , as a native Chinese speaker, would be long on such italki (or other website) to freely learn respective language together with him or her by helping each other. (my meaning)