Release yourself
Don't ever try to hold something in that makes you upset. I know the sensibility you probably keeps telling yourself this is the pain you should suffer cause this is the only way which must be passed to gain happiness have to pass through in order to gain happiness. Well, what the reality shows you is just the opposite. Ourselves set up a great sacrifice actually not pleasing. Sacrificing ourselves is actually not pleasing. Release yourself, and you will find unexpectedly that you are your spirit is lightened.